So what’s new?  We are still waiting for orders.  Nice.

Friday’s my birthday and the annual case of pissed off has come early.  Nice.

I’m lonesome, bored and grumpy.  In fact I am probably lonesome because I’ve declared myself mostly unfit for human consumption.  Last week, we went to get Texas Drivers’ licenses (yup, I’m fixin’ to leave and I converted anyway) and my social security card – which has been in my wallet for at least a decade – wasn’t there.  Well, I had all my other documentation except for that and the clerk wouldn’t give me a break and I went OFF on her.  It wasn’t even her fault.  It was totally uncharacteristic of me and I was so ashamed of myself that after going down the road a piece to get verification of my social security number and order a replacement, I made a point to go back to that office and apologize for being a total bitch.  DH was with me and I had to confess to him that I am not happy with one single aspect of life at the moment.

No, I’m not hitting my friend the Lexapro just yet, but the kids are driving me nuts, the hubby’s crankiness with his class (you know something I have TOTAL control over), and my sheer, complete and utter boredom are just a bit more than I feel like dealing with.  I miss school (or just having a freakin’ job!), I’m sick to death of homeschooling and the “I didn’t feel like doing it so I’m just going to say “I don’t know” when you ask me why my homework is done” syndrome.  This is an ongoing problem as is the “You failed it.  Again.  Do it over.  Again” complex.  I am 100% sure (in case I haven’t said this before) that we will not under any circumstances homeschool next year.

Now I wish I knew the way out of this funk…Orders might help.  A job would for sure.  Neither is within my control.  I’ll start with a nap.